still

hey still i am sleeping..alas i forgot to tell u something in the prevoius post..so i am here.....oh god....i felt like emotions overflowing, but when started typing, i found it vanished...again i felt the overflowing, overwhelming thoughts....hello u stop playing with me...my wit said, stop fooling around and preceive the things in a new light....well i searched for a light (i missed the candle somewhere)...but as u know, it is not that much easy...so i stopped the fruitless search.....so what can i do now?
yuck..what a question, huh? sleep gal sleep.......hey again the overwhelming..
come on stop it..and have some real actiion
well, i kno i am running out of time...still i got a worthy time to set the things in motion...

so...yes gal, have some sleep and go back to your dreams nw

NB: the above is an excerpt from my soliloquy......

changing times

life changes so drastically.......i am in deep sleep now...(dont think that i am a confused soul being tired of the real time realities has taken a rest)....whew, in fact i stopped fighting and the so called preparation for a short time....hey comeon as u know, its better not to plan anything.....
oh gosh i forgot to tell u, dear reader never expect me to write something here..i told you already, i am in deep sleep now....so nothing comes in my mind (hey it seems my mind is at point blank nw).....
can u suggest me some topic..or start a fresh conversation..?nay i am in deep sleep now...well, i will converse in my dreams then......
so pals take care
Love
a rester who is sleeping......

Trial

Hi
Finally I realized I am not a super human being. I am ordinary a just ordinary. Well, as i know (better than anyone!) emotions play a very vital role in life. It can be of anything, varying in magnitude and altitude. And my life!!!! Can I quote Tolstoy here.....story told by an idiot. I feel like I am nothing.....My ego, my prejudice, convictions everything got scattered within seconds. I assumed nay to be precise..i imaged myself as a self made idiot..but life taught me, I am not....I am nothing, but a poor creature who is destined to follow the rules of nature as everyone. But should I? No, I born to move differently and here I am. I am going to show the world that I am different. Hey friends, here is my humble but real life advice......don't overshadow your feelings, your emotions.......if you do, they are going to conquer you one day.........

With love
the confused soul........

titleless!!!

Its for my friends & foes:::

You know which is the fequent word, my mind uses? Its "its allin the game"
Anyway, I suppose the show is over, since the theatre is empty, and it is dormant to find the new audience
Glancing through the reels, now its time for checking the profit & loss accounts!!!
Hey, I am not a losser, i am a winner, winner of real life experience... so its worth of the pain (pain??)

Here goes my opening statement--it is to those who wish to rejoin to my league---you are not in anyway acceptable..so evn dont think of comin back and rejoin. And the next sentence goes, its for the beginners....just dont even inagine that you got a clear picture of me after reading this, nope dear, you got me wrong..this stupid blog of mine is innoway resembles to me except the opening the statement...

So, you may be wondering as what i am going to announce here,

Well, it is a proclamation or a letter to my near and dear (past, present 'n' future)

For these long years i was figuring out the circle, shape of the circle (shape??? it is a circle after all, aagin you got me wrong, its my circle..so the shape is not a matter of concern here_) So what matters here? To be exactly nothing matters here, except dont behave sheepishly, i am gona to pierce ur veil, and once i find the wolf, you aredetached

Hey, let me ask a question? Are you ready to listen a story (Dont think its somehing like an autobiography, its a story). you know, i am a pompous, insecure idiot who thinks there is a protector angel guarding me from the evils and boasts myself as very clever magician who knows every tricks. Anyway, its true that there is an angel (hey its the old Gabriel) somewhere around me trying to lessen the impact of blows...I am a magician (the self claimin one) with no talents.......but still i performed my part well (though stupid) to find that i was being tricked by the audience (hey the audience are clever enough, right?).....Hey, I was about to tell you a story...Once there lived....still living ....here i am....after all it is my blog, so i can be informal here....In fact am tired if being tired....you know, i was fighting vehemently to protect my so called joints,...they wre given the beautiful wraps too... i felt like some Chansi ki Rani, who is fightinf for its praja...i roamed around preaching about the relations et al...evn i overheard, hey look at her, how precious is her relations...and my god, i was hilarious......i was smart enough to perform in a group but was vrey careful in chosing relations...i used to draw the lakshmanrekhas.....but alas, as the years pass by, i came to know, "nothing lasts forever." (Courtesy Sidney Shedon)..... there were the cruel Aprils, mays, junes..... i felt like i wud not be in a position to bear all these ,mishaps...and the cruel months followed by recession period and then yes the unavoidable, ever happening resurrection. true to the word, I resurrected to be more sceptical and protective........Again,...dont smile, there was a blooming period..again the cruel months folowed by recesion.........the show goes on till date...

But the recent cruel months..... it seems like the bloomin periods are over......since, i dont have left anything in my account and as you know i am tired of being tired........so here i am....decided to stop th show...picture katham huva hai (Sorry to the makers of OSM)......

you may ask, what i feel like exactly? evn i dont know....i feel like it is over, still i feel like some rays of hope is there........votever...let it come as it likes to come.....i am not goin to care.....

Enoough scrabbling, right? I am damnsure, this is the worst blog you have ever seen... and i am satisfied, after all, though it is not the best, it is the worst........

First NB: Some of you may think that i am the famale version of devadas..You got me wrong (i already told you, u cant figure out vot am really like)....I was not talkin about the so called love lost and life lost...... Though i dont despise the so caled lovers, i havnt had a chance to get a real time lover......So this was just a narration of relations

Second NB: I know, the post is full of typos..well , i am not goin to correct it..after all it is my blog......

A word of caution: Please dont use your brain (if u got one) to figure out the above scrabblings.....

why I am here?

Hey, finally i am back...I was in oblivion for a certan period of time.....it's been a long time, right? I know, but you know, even i forgot the password fof my google pages and evn of this blog. THankz to orkut, i clicked the orkut link..thank God, these fellows didnt ask me for the password. :)

oops vots thetitle? y am here? to be frank, i am here coz i am off from work (not frm office) today. so i thought of scrabbling somethin here.....

What i was doin for the last one year (i suppose its more than one year). Oh yea i know so many things happened. U know, evn i dared to try to expand my carrer horizons at ernakulam. But as you know, i love chennai, despite of its smelly streets and poeple, horrible sadams et al. and i rejoind chennai last september. i wonder, y did u opt to leave chennai?

so, the question -vot i was doing for the last one year...precisely, nothing..i was wandering to ind something new, exciting..... you may doubt, whether i found the new exciting thing, right? nope, i think, this time also the lady luck was not with me...hence, i stoppd my wandering for a shorter period...( you know true adventurers never stops their journey, so i am). Wel, life taught me one thing (though one year is not life), never search in the outside, search in to the depth of your thoughts, ur conscious...i bet, you are not going to find anything unless you find a bodhi.. (sad, i think bodhi are no more due to the concerte jungles :( )

you know, i delved in to my thoughts and i concluded ....nay its not fair to disclose that at this point of time...

Oh, the title? why the hell, i chose this stupid title? this has nothing to do with the contents. i am here to write this, right? hello answer me, right??